To my lovely jin

That however had been the conversation that had opened the door. After that, we talked openly, candidly about anything and everything. Whenever I had a question, or had heard something…I came to Jin and asked her. And I honestly have to say, I came away each and every time with an honest and complete answer. Jin never once held back, told me what it was I wanted to know, didn’t go overboard, never gave me more than I’d asked, nor more than she felt I needed to know at the time to satisfy my curiosity or question.

Such then became the nature of our relationship. Jin became the best friend I ever had.

It was like going back in time. Jin sat waiting for me to do just that. Spit it out. Normally, or rather in the past I’d found it easy to do so. But it had after all been a while. Would she still be as receptive as she once was? Would I shock her by what I was considering, dealing with? I realized even as I asked myself that question, the answer was no. Not Jin.

“I think Sophia wants to have sex…you know, intercourse, this weekend…tonight,” I said running everything together…spitting it all out so to speak.

“I see. And what do you want?” She asked me point blank. “Do you want to have sex with her? And if I may ask Oliver…are we talking about losing our virginity here if you do?”

Oh she was inJind the wise one. She had always asked things in such a way that it forced you to honestly think about them before answering. Giving her an honest answer in return, especially as she’d always given me one.

“Yeah, I do. I mean…well, we’ve sort of done everything else but that,” I freely admitted to her, doing so without reservation, though I did notice she raised her eyebrows just a little upon hearing that. “And yeah…we both are,” I added then, though hearing the reluctance in my own tone of voice upon hearing myself say that.

“You’re not ready. Not even now,” she said equally as soft, but yet a bit more firmly. “If you were Oliver…you wouldn’t be hesitating right now. If Sophia is the right girl for you, and I’m not speaking about waiting until you get married before you decide to do that. Heaven knows…Thomas and I certainly didn’t. And I didn’t lose mine to Thomas in the first place. I lost my virginity to a man older than I was, who knew what he was doing, and to whom I will forever be grateful.”

“No shit? Really?” I asked, forgetting my manners for a moment as I had hardly ever sworn in front of Jin before. Luckily, she laughed it off though, not even chastising me for the obscenity.

“Yeah, but I was ready. I knew it was what I really wanted, even though I knew there was no future in it for him and I. That’s not what it was about for me. And it shouldn’t be for you either. If Sophia’s the one…she’ll wait. Just as you should. If she isn’t…well, then you won’t be looking back on this moment years from now and wishing that you really had waited. You want my advice Oliver?” She asked. Which she always did. Just like that. And then she waited, never offering, never giving it, unless I honestly and truly wanted to hear it. And for sure…this time I did.

“Yeah, I would, Jin. I really, really would.”

“You said you’ve done everything else. Can I assume from that, you’ve pleasured her orally?”

Ok, don’t laugh. I obviously still had a lot to learn here. “Her?”

Though she did. “Yes Oliver…her,” she chuckled a bit. “I take it, she’s pleasured you that way, taken your cock into her mouth, sucking it.”

I had seriously forgotten how candid she could be with me. I guess most would have thought she’d have used the more clinical term, “penis” when describing that particular male appendage. But…she’d said cock in front of me before, and pussy too. So hearing her say that didn’t exactly set me back on my haunches. Now…hearing her say, “sucking it” did. That was inJind a sex thing, describing what you do…or wanted to do, or did sort of sex thing…sex act. But I sat there asking myself the question, suddenly everything else was no longer important to me. “Had she?” Obviously she must have, but it wasn’t exactly something you normally sat there and pondered over. Until now.

“Ah yeah…she has. And ah no…I ah…I ah, haven’t,” I stammered just a bit, finally admitting to her I hadn’t reciprocated in that way. Though to be perfectly honest about it, the subject of my doing that to her…for her, hadn’t exactly come up either. Obviously…we hadn’t done just about everything. There were still a few things. Well…a whole bunch of things actually, we hadn’t done.

“I see,” She said again sitting back in her chair, rocking a little, that same knowing bemused smile on her face. “So tell me Oliver…have you?”

“No.” I said easily, honestly…and sincerely. I never had. Never even thought about it until that very moment. And perhaps to some, when that moment came, they’d think about it, wonder about it, hesitate, and maybe even find it disgusting or a revolting thought. But not me. I sat there, not realizing I was actually becoming aroused, not just yet anyway, though I was. But my mind was lost in the thought…actually licking pussy, not just fingering the way I had done. Which had been pleasurable and exciting enough in its own way.

At least I wasn’t so naive that I didn’t know what a clit was, or that it felt good to a girl when you touched it, played with it. But I’d never actually considered licking it…until now. But not only that. As the image suddenly filled my head, as I sat there imagining myself actually doing that, it suddenly dawned on me. It wasn’t Sophia’s pussy I was considering or thinking about doing that to.

It was Jin’s! It was the image once again of her standing there in her backyard, naked…taking the sheets down off the line. Only in my mind, I was kneeling there in front of her, also naked…rigidly hard, my fingers pulling her pussy lips apart, that sweet delicious looking clit of hers (I could only imagine it being so of course) as I knelt there licking it.

“Oliver? Oliver? Earth to Oliver!” She said, shaking me back to the present.

“Oh sorry…” I said feeling my face reddening; though I am sure Jin took it for embarrassment on my part as she shook her head positively at me.

“My advice,” she said , sitting up again in her rocking chair. “Tell her you’d rather wait, not rush into it for one thing. I’m willing to bet, she’s not really ready either Oliver, and I’m willing to bet you one of my home-made pies, that she’ll thank you for it afterwards, if you don’t. But…maybe what you should do is surprise her.”

“How?”

“By doing what she’s already done for you, by going down on her…or rather, licking her pussy if you will.”

God I was hard, sitting there hearing her say that. Once again the image however, is not of Sophia, my girlfriend…but of Jin. And I knew at that very moment, I wasn’t ready. Not with Sophia anyway…I liked her. I liked her a lot. But I knew at that very moment. I wasn’t in love with her. And doing something, like taking advantage of that, taking her virginity when I wasn’t, or giving mine to her either for that matter, wasn’t something either one of us should be doing under the circumstances. And to be perfectly honest about it, I now had to wonder about the rest of it too.

“But…I’ve never done it, not even sure how to do it for one thing. And what if…she doesn’t like it? Or doesn’t want me to?”

Once again she laughed. “Oh honey…one thing you’re going to soon learn about women. We all love having our cunts licked.”